Sadly, a year after it was released, my book, "When Your Child is Hurting" was being taken out of circulation.
I knew the publisher took a risk on the topic, and me - truth be told. And the weight of that decision sat heavy on me. My first response was tears, for several reasons. The first was sadness that I disappointed the good people at the publishing house who invested in the book. Second there was a personal sadness that I didn't make it work. As much as I tried to hold off the negative thoughts about my writing and potential, a few snuck in.
Even though I've got another book in the works, that one disappointment started to stain everything I believed about my calling to write.
Maybe I'm just not cut out to write in this market.
Maybe my writing is boring.
Maybe I'm too boring to write in this market.
The day after I got the letter, I read this blog post by Seth Godin,
So I put on my big girl panties, (like my sweet friend Lysa likes to say), and decided that it wasn't the time to declare myself a failure. It was the time to embrace hard, and dig in.
Godin ended his post with these sentences:
The first five years of my solo business, when the struggle seemed neverending, I never missed a day, never took a nap. (I also committed to ending the day at a certain time and not working on the weekends. It cuts both ways.)
In short: show up.Interesting how God knew I needed to hear those words on exactly that day. God wasn't telling me "no" - I was.
Perhaps someone else needs to hear these words today. If you are facing something painful today, please don't give up - at least not now when your emotions are threatening. I remembered something else a friend once told me: "Don't doubt in the dark what you know to be true in the light."
And now, abruptly changing the subject, I picked a winner completely at random for the gift basket from Rose Lane Cottage. It will contain some little goodies that I'll tuck in for you. The winner is Shelia Hall. I've emailed you personally for your mailing address.
Thank you to everyone who took the time to post a comment. I LOVED reading them.
In His Love,
Art is hard. Selling is hard. Writing is hard. Making a difference is hard.
When you're doing hard work, getting rejected, failing, working it out--this is a dumb time to make a situational decision about whether it's time for a nap or a day off or a coffee break.