I think I had gotten a bit too comfortable with the status quo. At my very core, I'm a girl who prefers things to stay the same. At my home, if a picture gets hung on the wall, it stays there until we move. My closet is filled with clothes I've worn for
Over the years, I've discovered that there's actually something deeper than a desire to stay the same. It's fear.
That fear would take the lead if I let it. But when I invited Jesus to be my Lord, fear had to step aside. There's really only room for one leader in my life. I had to decide who I would actually follow: Jesus or fear. Actually, it's a decision I make daily.
Every "good" Christian girl looks at those two options and rolls her eyes thinking: of course she should choose Jesus. Is it even a choice?
I think that too. But then I find myself playing it safe. I find my prayers being cautious. I find myself holding a bit too tightly to one of my children. I discard a bold idea. Basically, I choose to follow fear over Jesus.
This year, I attended the Evangelical Press Association's annual conference and got myself shaken up. I'm not sure that was their intent, but it certainly was God's. God poured fresh ideas into my head, until I was bubbling over. I came home and organized my thoughts, and started pursuing some crazy ideas for Proverbs 31. I can only thank God for such godly women leading that organization (Lysa TerKeurst, Renee Swope and LeAnn Rice) who are allowing me to pursue these bold ideas.
Today, Lysa wrote a devotion called "Praying for the Impossible." She then invited readers to her website where she has a video of her interviewing Pastor Steven Furtick from Charlotte. This pastor is bold! And Lysa is giving away a copy of his book "Sun Stand Still" - so hop on over there after finishing my blog - cause I've got a giveaway too.
I realized something after watching that video. I'm drawn to leaders who walk to the edge. I want to be around people who are sold out for Christ. I want more of that in my own life ... and choosing to be around others who want the same, ignites something in me. It's good, but it's the opposite of fear. And it's prompted some radical changes in my life this year.
How about you? What dream or vision has God put in your heart? Are you pursuing it boldly or has fear taken the lead?