Saturday, May 7, 2011
Posted by Glynnis Whitwer
I had my suspicions, and asked her again if she was sure these were going to fit. After another round of insisting, I gave in and bought the shoes ... which I haven't seen on her since.
You see, we have a history, my girl and I, of this happening. Her insisting she'll wear something, only to get it home and find there's something just not right about it. It's too tight here, it itches there, and so on.
This morning she finally admitted they didn't fit right. So her sister is the proud owner of a new pair of sandals today.
This pattern is frustrating to me. I never know when she's going to decide she doesn't like today what she loved yesterday. Honestly, it makes me NOT want to buy her anything expensive so that we don't waste the money.
My mom took the girls to a puppet show this morning, and so I had some time to think after they left. And I realized that God must think the same thing about me sometimes. There are times when I'm sure I want something ... I see others having the same thing, and it looks like fun. It almost fits me, and I could wear it, but in reality, there's something that's just not right about it.
In my past, this has happened more with responsibilities than clothing. I'm enthusiastic about a lot of things, and often only see the bright shiny surface of the opportunity. Without taking time to really investigate the reality of that opportunity, I've gotten myself involved with things that really weren't a good fit.
Interestingly, just like I bought my daughter the shoes, even with my suspicions, God has allowed me to "put things on" that He knew all along wouldn't fit. I had to learn it for myself that what He picks out for me is really the best fit of all.
The challenge is figuring that all out. It's intentionally going to God and asking Him to confirm my choices and opportunities. It's not jumping at something because it looks good. It's wearing something awhile (if I can) before I "buy" it.
I want to be able to buy my daughter lovely things that I know will fit her well. But for now, she is still learning to trust my judgment, and not be impulsive.
Does God want to give me blessings, but withholds them until I trust His judgement completely? It's an interesting question for a Saturday morning.
Grace & Peace to you today, my friend.
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