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Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Welcome to those of you who are visiting my blog after reading the Proverbs 31 devotion for today, "I'm Not Good as New."

I wrote that devotion after breaking electric clippers.  But there's something else that's "broken" in my life, and I've haven't written about it ... until today.

Recently I've acknowledged I've been hurt and changed by something.  I didn't admit it for years because, honestly, I thought it shouldn't have bothered me.  I thought I should have been strong enough to handle this situation.  Especially being a mature Christian.   I'm now ready to admit I've been damaged, and need healing. 

Five years ago, my husband and I adopted two little girls from Liberia, Africa.  We knew it would be difficult  We expected our daughters to have significant challenges and thought we were ready to deal with them.  We knew our precious girls would be damaged, we just didn't expect we would be too as a result of helping them. 

Our oldest daughter has a cognitive disability.   It took four years of helping her in every way we knew to help.  Finally, with professional testing, we identified that her learning and language challenges went deeper than just needing to "catch up."  That was an uphill climb, and hearing your daughter is mildly retarded was hard.  We never expected to be the parents of a special needs child. 

Yet that experience was easy compared to what we are going through with our youngest daughter.  After five years of dealing with frustrating behavior that doesn't make sense and symptoms that didn't seem connected, she has just been diagnosed with something called Reactive Attachment Disorder (RAD).   She doesn't have some of the most dramatic symptoms, which is why it took so long to diagnose.  The "problem" isn't all with our daughter.  The therapist said that parents of children with RAD show symptoms of Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome.

We can understand.  We've had five years of not knowing what she was going to do next, always being on edge, and on top of it all, feeling guilty because of our reactions and our seeming inability to emotionally help this child entrusted to us. 

I understand why people don't talk about what has hurt them.  Although we've shared bits and pieces of our challenges, we never shared the depth.  It's embarrassing to admit you can't handle something on your own. People can be judgemental - especially about parents and children.  I had a friend adopting from Africa and I didn't want her to worry about her adoption.  My reasons for keeping this to myself were varied. 

I'm choosing today to write about it because of this devotion.  And I'm actually happy to say we just started therapy this week.  We'll start with me, my husband and daughter, and expand it to include the rest of the family.  We've also discovered a support group for parents of children with RAD. 

This experience has changed me.  And I know I need help to recover. But in reality, we waited too long to deal with it.  We just kept thinking we could figure it out on our own. We felt overwhelmed by circumstances and unable to think straight at times.  Believe me when I say we've been praying desperate prayers for years.

Even though God hasn't miraculously healed our daugthers (or us), I believe with all my heart that He wants to bring emotional healing to every member of our family. I don't believe we'll be totally healed until heaven, but God will not leave us broken until then.  I'm not sure how He'll do it, but I trust Him.   I'm just at the start of my healing journey and I would appreciate your prayers for both my daughters and my family.

Today, I'd also like to pray for you.  My guess is you've been carrying a burden and a brokenness you've never shared.  Perhaps you've shared a bit of your problem but not the emotional damage it's done to you.  I'm finding freedom in being honest about how hard this is.  And I want to extend that invitation to you.

Please post anonymously if you would rather not share your name, but please leave a prayer request.  How can I pray for you?

I'm standing on James 5:16, “Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.”

In His Love,

Glynnis

53 comments:

Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and your personal struggles. I won't elaborate on it here, but life has become pretty overwhelming for me much of the time. Please pray for me and for my family. And again, thank you!

Anonymous said...

Thank you for your post today. My prayer request is for help dealing with anxiety and anger issues.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for your post. I feel rejected by my friends and in the past from my husband, because of a physical condition that affected me for the past 8 years. I have been trying to put on a "happy" face and have faith in God. But I have been emotionally broken on the inside. I have been to therapy and that has helped. Please pray that the rejection and loneliness doesn't overwhelm me.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for your honest sharing of your brokeness while raising two special young girls. I truly understand as I have felt the same way raising our 19 year old son with Down Syndrome. It is exhausting work!!! As the years have past, he has gradually developed into a very wonderful young man. God has used this precious son to change me in countless ways. For this and more, I will be eternally grateful to my Father who chose me to raise this young man. I couldn't have said that years ago, but God is in the business of healing the broken hearted. He is the precious "Balm of Gilead", the healer of my soul! I will be praying for you and your family. This is a process and it does take time. Thankfully, He makes everything beautiful in its time.

Anonymous said...

I wanted to thank you for this powerful message. I spent years putting on an "I can do this" face after being abused as a child. Meanwhile, my solutions led me deeper and deeper into a pit. I can see that I do need prayer for dealing with a dad who still doesn't want to be part of my life. He wasn't the abuser. The abuser became a weird sort of father figure. Please help me to recognize my only real Father as the only One I really need.

Anonymous said...

I am broken. I've known that for a long time. I have trouble, though, believing that even God can love me or fix me. I know it with my head but not in my heart. I've been struggling with it a lot lately. Your message is timely as I became so frustrated yesterday that I took a step that scares me to death. I called a woman from church and asked to meet with her today. I want someone to know how I am struggling and to pray with. I just feel like giving up. Now, as I think about meeting with her, I am somewhat terrified. I don't want to be rejected, but putting on my "Everything is Okay" face just isn't working.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for your devotional today. I think I will share it with my husband, who is struggling with his family business. A combination of a controlling, physically ailing mother who won't turn over responsibilities, a brother who doesn't seem to care, and the bad economy has stressed him to the point he relies in alcohol to ease the stress. Our children are older and are distancing themselves from him as a result. He is a good, smart businessman and loving father and husband, but is being held back by others sharing the business and he doesn't want to leave it because its his family. Please pray for him and our family.

"A God Moment" said...

The Holy Spirit was using you today to help others through your own experience of "brokenness" and "healing". Thank you. I have been dealing with so many emotions for the past 5 months. My 17 year old daughter is pregnant. She is a senior in high school and so is the baby's father. My daughter has always had "emotional" issues throughout adolesence. She was in and out of psychiatric hospitals; very manipulative and controlling. My husband is not her father and she blames him for all her problems. She thinks that he is too strict, that he treats her different than our biological children, that he's just an overall horrible person. So, on top of being emotionally unstable and pregnant she has decided that she no longer wants to live with us because it is causing her too much stress. I've begged my daughter to come home; she won't and continues to blame my husband. I know my husband may be strict, but I would never let anyone abuse or hurt my children; my daughter is overreacting and making a huge mistake. She has moved into her boyfriend's parents home where there is absolutely no discipline and my heart is broken. Every morning I give this pain and anger up to God; but for some reason during the day I grab it back. I can't let it go. Please pray for me, my daughter and my family. I will hold you and your family up in prayer, Glynnis. Thank you for sharing.

Anonymous said...

Father, in the precious name of the Lord Jesus Christ, you see, hear and feel the pain of these women and their families. We all confess that it is no longer "ok" to put on a smile when we are broken inside. According to your Word, it is so much better to confess our pain to you or a saint and then give the problem to you. ONLY YOU can fix the hurt. Lord, let us focus our hearts, minds and eyes on you this day and all the days to come. We need you and we thank you for giving us the precious gift of confession and healing.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for being so open, honest and real. Please pray for my myself, my husband and 14 year old daughter. We started counseling last week, after years of thinking we could figure it out on our own. We had to come to a point where we admitted in and of ourselves we were not capable and needed help. We need healing that only God can give.

Anonymous said...

I ABSOLUTELY agree with the others when they say THANK YOU for this powerful message. It spoke right to my heart. I am at a place in my life were I am trying to concentrate on myself and my relationship with Christ, but it is so hard not to be driven by the world. I often confess my sins, but do not feel forgiven or like I even deserve forgiveness. I have lied about major things, cheated, stole, had sex before marriage, felt sorry for myself, been self absorbed, had anxiety, hurt others, and I am sure there is more, but there is so much I don't feel like I deserve his love and forgiveness for. I want a husband and family so badly and am jealous of those who have it, but I don't know if I deserve it. I know God says he will give you the desires of your heart, but what if my desires are not in line with his will? I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life. This is my biggest fear. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE pray for me. I am lost and need him so much...

Ginny said...

I just revealed my secret of 35 yrs. I submitted my story of having an abortion at the age of 18 to Matthew West who was inspired to write a song for his new album. The beautiful song is entitled "The Healing Has Begun". I thank the Lord for Matthew's spiritual insight of having his listeners send their own stories. This is an awesome beginning to my journey of healing. Please pray that God will continue to strenghten me to become what He would have me to.

Anonymous said...

I love your post today- it struck right at home at the big gaping hole in my heart. I have constantly struggled with a feeling of low self-worth, self-hatred and insecurity since i was a teen. Sometimes I feel like it's getting better, but on the especially emotional rollercoaster type days, i feel more than ever- that I am worthless. Like that other woman that posted it, I too feel like i know the truth in my head- but that my heart doesn't accept it. This has affected just about every relationship I've ever had. It makes me act out impusively, both financially and emotionally. Please pray that I will be healed of this, that my spouse and I will reach a place of deeper emotional intimacy- so that physical intimacy may be restored. And that the Holy Spirit will grant us both wisdom in how to handle our finances and parent our children. Thank you soo much sweet sister for your beautiful post!!

Anonymous said...

Thank you so much for your open honesty. My friend (only one of two people who knows the brokenness with which I'm struggling right now) forwarded your devotion to me. I will pray for you and your family as the Lord works healing for you. I will pray with thankfulness for you, as well, knowing that you will be praying for me (and all these other women that have posted something here). My brokenness is from a direct attack on my marriage. My husband's sexual addiction (that's the first time I've written that...) has festered for years, and this past May blew my world apart. We are a Christian family, working to raise God-centered children, so divorce is not an option. Please pray that I will be able to take the "medicine" of learning how to forgive him, stop being mad at him and eventually start to trust him again, and allow Christ to heal our marriage. Thanks!!

Julie Gillies said...

I saw this on Twitter, Glynnis, and headed over. What a beautiful post. You're so right...we are all broken. We need to acknowledge our brokenness and ask Jesus to do what only He can do.

I'm SO grateful He heals the broken.

Anonymous said...

I made a very poor decision a few years ago that hurt a lot of people. I have asked God for forgiveness but I still struggle with forgiving myself. I still walk around feeling very ashamed and in turn this has affected my confidence in myself. I find myself walking with my head hung down and avoiding eye contact with people because I am so afraid that they will hate me for what I did. I also do not trust my husband now because he cannot let go of his ex-wife nor she him. I have started praying that God will place someone in her life that will love her and cherish her. I hope that someday we will find peace and happiness in our marriage but sometimes I wonder if God is punishing me for what I did or at least witholding his blessing from our marriage.

Anonymous said...

Thank you, Glynnis, for both your devotional and blog post - both of which relate to my personal journey. My 18-year-old daughter has Down syndrome, and, as a previous commenter said, it can be exhasting. She is moderately cognitively impaired (CI), and also has an emtional impairment (EI), for behaviors. We praise the Lord for the wonderful spec. ed school she's been in for the latest few years - which works very specifically with behaviors, and there's been improvement!

I also have some issues with anxiety that have stemmed from the past - so I know I have some PTSD from both situations. But God is faithful, and will continue to carry us!

Let's pray for each other in our similar situations! Thanks and love!

Josey Bozzo said...

Glynnis,
Thank you for being so open about yourself. You have helped me. My prayer request is to be more patient, kind and loving with my children. I have had a hard time with this since becoming a mom. My children are 9 and 13 and everyday I regret things I've done and said or how I've behaved with them.
Thank you
Josey

Anonymous said...

Glynnis, I love your devotion. Thank you for opening to us,your friends and sisters in Christ. I have been broken emotionally and as such at age 48 I am not married neither am I in a relationship. I fear rejection, dejection and so I wear "I am okay face" and say that, "The next relationship I go into is for keeps" so I am not looking for a relationship. Yet the reality is I have never really dealt with the hurt and I think that it is keeping me from living my best life now. Please pray for me as it is time for me to deal with it. I thank God for women like you Glynnis who shows us that God does care about us and about every situation that we are faced with on a daily basis. Thank you God for loving me and loving my blog sisters. We need you Lord and cannot do without you. Forgive us for all the mess, junk, hurt, mistakes that have become a part of our life. We just praise and honor you and ask you for wisdom, guidance, direction, grace, mercy and favor as we go about our daily lives. Help us to turn to you as our first priority and not as a last resort, In your name, Amen.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for praying for me today. Last night I took a risk and talked to a co-worker about an issue I've had at work that has been troubling and hurtful to me. I feel rejected by everyone I have to work with, including my boss, so I asked if morale had changed because of my presence. I only took the job a year and a half ago. The conversation got off on to other related topics and before I knew it I was spilling my guts. When I specifically asked that this person not share what I felt was a personal conversation with anyone, she said no, that she was loyal to the boss and she would tell her if she asked what we were talking about. She saw us talking (after hours). I feel even more betrayed now. The situation I find myself in at work with everyone has now become worse not better. On top of risking all and sharing how betrayed and hurt I've been in this group of people, she decided to add more insult to my injury. I woke up early this morning and have been crying ever since because I don't know how to heal from this latest and what has gone before in the situation. People have a wrong perception of me and I don't know where it comes from because I have a sweet spirit. People on the "outside" recognize this, but in the workplace, it's always the same old treatment. I never fit in. Please pray for me.

Anonymous said...

Your post caught my eye as I was desperately looking for help from any direction. I can't hide my brokenness any more, as I feel everyone must be able to see my insides, split wide open. My 11 year-old son is currently in a psychiatric hospital because he is suicidal. Although I myself have been receiving psychiatric care, it is no longer effective, and I have no real support because my own depression has made me socially isolated. I am afraid that I am going to lose my job, and then my house (I am custodial parent). I am terrified, and feel guilty that I am somehow responsible for my child's illness. Please please pray for my son and I...the past 7 years since my husband divorced me are almost more than we can bear.

Anonymous said...

Love and Logic (loveandlogic.com) has a cd, Healing Trust, for families dealing with RAD. God Bless you and we are praying for you and your family.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing your experience. I have never really admitted to this before but maybe now is the time...

When I was much younger I was involved with drugs. Drugs took over my life for many years. When I was 27 I realized I was pregnant. As soon as I found out I stop using, or at least tried. I was already 3 months along and during my pregnancy I had a few moments of weakness where I used. The guilt was overwhelming. I couldn't believe that I would endanger my child like I did. Well my daughter was born and for the most part, she is fine. Except for ADHD. I have had many people tell me that even if I was drug free the whole pregnancy she may have still been ADHD, but I know in my heart that I did that to her. I have tried to forgive myself and I know that God has, but sometimes when I see her struggling in school I just want to die with guilt.

I know that I should let this go and forgive myself and I am trying everyday but I still haven't been able to let it go. Maybe one day I will. Thanks for listening.

Sarah Y said...

Thank you for sharing with us today Glynnis about your struggles. I will pray for you and your family.

I, like many others, have days where I feel so broken inside but I hide it so well most of the time.

I am harboring resentment and anger toward my husband and have been trying to push it down deep inside but it never really goes away. It just resurfaces from time to time and then starts the ugly cycle all over again of us arguing.

My husband has a severe anger problem and often screams and swears at me and calls me names. I try to remain calm and calm him down, but I'm ashamed to say that sometimes I snap and start yelling back, because I feel like I'm being pushed over the edge. We have tried marriage counseling but he stopped going last year because he thought the therapist was too much on my side. We have only been married for 2 years and it has been 2 years of hell. I don't believe in divorce, so I won't leave, but I don't know how to get through to him that the emotional and verbal abuse has to stop. Whenever I try to bring things up to him to show him how he makes me feel, he gets estreemely angry and spouts off a laundry list of things he feels that I've done wrong to him. I'm at my wits end and don't know what to do anymore. I pray and pray and I know God hears me but it isn't getting any better, only worse. Will you pray for me please?

rosemortimer said...

hi, my name is rose and i feel very broken. i have my 2 grandchildren that i take care. the oldest is a boy who was born addicted to methadone and with 1 kidney. he was in the hospital the first 2 months of his life. i got him when he was about 5 months old. not long after he was born his mother became pregnant again. she had a little girl who was born addicted to methadone and weighed only 4lbs at full term. my son and her lived with me even though i was taking care of the boy. there was no care of getting him to the kidney doctor or anything. i had to arrange all of it and i am the one to this day still taking him back and forth to the doctors. my son went to prison and he asked me to keep the little girl. i said yes she is my grandchild also. the mother lost her place of residence and wanted to take the little girl to a shelter and it tore me apart so i offered her to stay with us.i thought it would be some help physically since i worked 50 hours a week. i had to quit my job because of the mother arguing with my babysitter. i gave her to a certain date to find somewhere else to live since i couldn't deal with her drinking and coming in and agitating the children. my son is now home and she has found herself back in my home. now both are drinking and when i ask them to leave with the arguing and drinking they want to take the kids with nowhere to go. she did sign a paper giving me temporary custody until they are stabilized in their own place and it has been notarized but it doesn't hold in court or with the police. please pray that God will give me the cousrage, strength and guidance in what to do to get custody of these children until they are stabilized. thank you. if you have any advice i'd gladly accept it. i feel devastated and i'm hurting for these children.

Jeanies Heavenly Treasures said...

Glynnis,

Thank you for your article today! It has so touched me! It is part of my testimony! This past year I finally got healed from having my abortion 33 yrs ago! Praise God!
Now, God has called me to get behind an abortuon recovery ministry called Tears To Treasurs. They do a Biblical Based Recovery Group called Forgiven and Set Free. Yes, Indeed, We Serve A God Who Wants Us Emotionally Healed!
Stop by my web site sometime. I sell purses, etc. Part of my proceeds goes to Tears To Treasures.
God Bless You!
Jeanie

Anonymous said...

Glynnis,

Thank you for today's devotional and post. You are so correct that we're all broken in some way, but we're often too scared to share it. I too have been one of those people.

A year ago I learned that my husband battled an addiction to pornography. We'd been married for five years and he'd been able to hide it from me for that long. This left me more broken and bruised that I've ever been in my life. My entire world felt turned upside down. I was hurt, angry and kept my secret inside because I feared the shame and embarrassment of telling anyone why I was broken.

In the past year God has shown Himself faithful to me and is bringing healing to my heart, my husband and my marriage.

I am praying this verse over all of you Glynnis and all of you other sweet women who are posting comments. It has been my lifeline over this past year:

“I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them.”
—Isaiah 42:16

Anonymous said...

Wonderful post! I will be holding your daughters and family in prayer. I claim II Kings 20:5- "I have heard your prayer, I have seen your tears, Surely I will heal you." Like you, I do not expect physical healing in this life, but I do claim spiritual wellness and a healthy "heart" condition based on this verse.

Please pray for my husband, who has a mental illness and is struggling with anger at God for allowing our precious cat to die on Sunday, despite multitudes of prayers for healing. On top of that, I am having alot of work pressure and would not mind prayers, myself. I bring all of the commenters here to our Abba in prayer today, too.

God bless you,
Jennifer

Anonymous said...

Thank you for your devotion today, since the age of 18 i have had battle after battle.. i go in circles with my relationship with god! I recently have made some bad choices leaving me feeling lonely, lost, indecisive, and guilt. I know i cannot change what i did but, some about your message today made,me re dedicate my life to god. I feel hopeful. Thank you.please pray that i will continue to grow and feel encouraged by God.

You and your family will be in my prayers

Thoughts for the day said...

Wow. A lot of hurt was written here on this post.
Father God you know these writers by name and you know and love each and every one of them. Help them through the issues they have written down and addressed and give them the courage to get help or keep writing until the pain is revealed even more. Lord Jesus touch them in a powerful way so that without a shadow of a doubt they will know it was you and your spirit touching them deeply in their woundedness.
Thank you God for allowing this blog site to be open and honest and an example for others to follow. In your powerful and mighty name~ Amen

Anonymous said...

I have been battling depression and anxiety for quite some time. My husband and I need guidance regarding medication, and honestly it's very, very difficult to discuss. Thank you for your vulnerability. I will pray for you also.

Anonymous said...

Although we have confessed the sins to each other and a counselor, my husband & I are still struggling to heal. Please pray that the thought of divorce would be taken from my husband's mind. Please pray that God would bring us closer to each other & to Himself. I know that He is able to do much more than I could even begin to imagine.

Barb said...

Please pray for my 23 year old daughter and her 2 year old daughter ( and me if you can ) Natalie has been stealing from me and lying and.... I start my day praying for them and my other 2 children--but I am at the end of my rope. I am a widow who works 2 jobs and can barely make it and she has no concern or regard for me. They are living with me and she won't even help around the house. Runs with a rough crowd and I think she is doing drugs--I am very worried about my grand-daughter --please could you pray for us??!!

anonymous said...

Believe in his phy healing powers, he asked Sarah "is there anything too hard for me?" Pray for me that I will get married soon.

Anonymous said...

Glynnis: Thank you so much for your comment. Your devotions are a welcomed part of my day from Proverbs 31 and you inspired me to go deeper with Jesus this year by reading the daily chronological Bible. I have been reading, and have had so many conversations I would have loved having with you as I coursed through all the events of the OT, which we are still in. It has been convicting, rich, life giving, and has been a constant support to protect me from wanting to do what you confessed today you have suffered from. Like you, I see how faithful God is to bring us through the uglies, and how special you are to have been elected to help these children. Right it won't be easy. I will support you in prayer for you and them. God bless you and love you, comfort you and encourage you, gift you and surround you with peace. Debra

Nicole said...

Thank you, Mrs. Glynnis. I am 29 years old and have JUST NOW been diagnosed with RAD. Very rare for my age, yet sadly it is my brokenness. My heart hurts for you being on the receiving end and my heart hurts along with your daughter for being the giver of such emotional behavior.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for being willing to pray for me. I'm broken hearted right now because I've lost my grandaugter--I don't mean she died, she is in a place where I can't get to her. She is only 4 years old and doesn't understand. Please pray for us both.

Anonymous said...

I have a difficult marriage. My emotions have been manipulated and played with like a roller coaster for 21 years. This all began with an unhealthy emotional parent as a child. It is time for me to get over it. I know my first step: Set boundaries. That is what I am working on now...but it is not easy with a mate who does not understand boundaries. I need God's strength, His grace. I would like to know someone is praying for me.

Anonymous said...

I am broken and tired of being broken. I turn to God daily but somehow keep sabotaging my life with anxiety, fear and frustration. I now see that I am passing it on to my girls. I want to break the cycle but often can't find the confidence to start and the strength to keep it up. I will, with God's grace, always move forward, I have to do what I have to do. Constantly waiting for tomorrow to start my life can't be an option any more. Just give me strength for today, Lord.

KelliGirl said...

Wow, Glynnis! First, thanks for sharing your heart and your struggles. Your vulnerability and honesty touches me deeply.

Second, I see God's grace and goodness pouring through your testimony into the lives of so many of so many broken women.

It's so hard to understand why being a Christian and doing everything "right" doesn't make us all better. But I have faith that Jesus came into this broken world to offer peace and love and joy and healing. He is our hope. Things may not happen as we expect or when we expect, but He is with us nonetheless...and He will be glorified.

Anonymous said...

The Lord is so good to me...thank you for working on his behalf by posting today's message, Glynnis. Last year I lost my job and am now facing formal charges, because of what 2 colleagues have said. I feel lost, betrayed, and confused. I've tried to be patient and thought that the Lord was working to dismiss this - in the name of TRUTH. Today I was told nothing will change my situation. My heart is broken. Please pray for me. Thank you.

Anonymous said...

Please pray..I have so much anger, I desire freedom but I also relish the 'power' anger brings, it's an emotion that I am 'comfortable' with but it is hurting my relationship with God, my husband and others. I know forgiveness comes into it...but at this point I lack clarity and courage to know what I'm really looking into. What exactly are the issues/sins that my anger is rooted in? Chronic health problems? unmet expectations? Rage, Anger, Hate, and Fear all lurk within. I know I'm afraid to go where God wants me to, for when I ask Him to take me where He wants me to go I see myself, my heart, closing the door to Him. I just don't want to see the ugly truth about me.
Thank you for listening..please pray as the Holy Spirit leads

Anonymous said...

It breaks my heart that there is so much brokenness in myself and all over the world all because one incompetant woman gave in to temptation thousands of years ago. I wonder if Eve sees our pain.

slds56 said...

Glynnis,
Thank you for sharing from your heart. One person sharing like you did to day opens the heart of so many others. Satan wants us to listen to his lies. He tells us there is no one who cares and that no one would understand. He is a liar and a great deceiver. We must silence his voice with the sweet and powerful name of Jesus. There is freedom from our pain and brokeness. As I read the comments today my heart was breaking for each of these people. I am praying for each situation. I do not know any of thes individuals, but God does. Glynnis, I am also praying for you and your family.

natalie said...

Dear Friend,
Thank you for your honesty. God is truly using you to minister to others.

Our middle daughter, 13 at the time, was killed instantly in a car accident. It will be 6 years this Oct. 2nd that our lives were changed forever. She was with a friend coming back from a volleyball game. Her best friend's mom was driving. It was a beautiful day, the driver ran off the road, over corrected and the suv rolled. Mal was the only one to lose her life.

Since that time, I have spoken very little to the driver. I know in my head it was an accident, but my heart still says she should have been more careful. I have prayed to forgive her, even though it was an accident. I have never told her I know it was an accident or that I forgive her.

I have written her a 2 paige letter, saying I forgive her, I know she would change it in a heartbeat if she could. Please pray for me, that I will have the strength to give her the letter.

I will be praying for your family as well.

much love,
natalie

Anonymous said...

Thank for your sharing your heart. My prayers are with you and your family in this journey.
I have been struggling with much brokenness and pain from the past and was just told that I have PTSD. I pray that as I begin a therapy for this that I may begin to heal and recover. Please pray for me if you will. God Bless you.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for your devotion. I needed to hear God heals. My husband doesn't love me anymore and can't tell me why. Our pastor and wife are helping us but nothing seems to work as I think he has already given up. He has many issues from his past that he has buried and I think he needs to bring them to God for healing but is too scared. He says he is not angry about them anymore but I think he is in denial. I know I need to trust God with my husband ad our marriage but it is so hard. We have two beautiful children, a baby and a toddler, and I can't even think about them growing up from a broken home. Please pray for us. Thank you your devotion has encouraged my heart.

Anonymous said...

Thank you so much for you devotion this morning. I know that God is bringing things like this to my attention to help me heal. I just found out four days ago that my husband has been having an emotional affair with someone I thought was my friend. This is not the first time it has happened. It happened 5 years ago but no one knew and we worked through it and had counseling. But this time alot of people know including our two boys. One of the worst things about it is he was a pastor at the time. I really don't want a divorce but yet I don't know if I could ever trust him again. I was just regaining that trust when it happened again. We all are in desperate need of that emotional healing. Please remember us in your prayers and I will likewise remember you. Thank you and God Bless!!

Anonymous said...

Glynnis
I thank God for you and your sharing, and I believe He is going to bring about powerful healing in your life. Praying for you and your family for comfort, strength and healing.

Anonymous said...

Please pray for my husband who has alot of issues from childhood (hurt/rejection/abandonment) I see these being played out in his relationships & jobs. He is really struggling in life now and needs healing.

Heidi said...

Reading your message today for me was unusual. You have experienced similiar experiences our family has with adopting 2 older children from Liberia. Four years later I can say it has been a journey of our own and along with the 4 children we had prior to our 2 Liberian adoptive children we had to get professional evals and bring counseling in and we have had 7 calm months and a new season. Yet when the storm is over it is not instant healing but we sure welcomed calm and quiet after 3 1/2 hears of rushing waves. Forgiveness is a real experience GOD wanted to teach our family. GOD Bless you and know he has chosen this to bring his beauty and glory into your lives. Love and Prayers from a mother who might understand.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for the thoughts. I have struggled with abuse as a child, and it took a long time for me to finally find someone that I could trust to talk about it. I have also been struggling lately at work because I feel that I am being treated in unfair ways. Please pray for me as I consider other places of employment.

quiltindiva said...

Glynnis;
Thank you for sharing. I just got this posting from a friend and believe it is for me.
I am finding it hard dealing with depression and being diagnosed with Bipolar. I'm a christian and re-dedicated my life back to christ but am struggling with His love for me and my failures that seem to follow me everywhere I go. I am broken and need Him to put me back together again. I need to hear from Him.
In Christ,
Carolyn