My devotion today on P31 or Crosswalk, speaks to the heart of many of my frustrations - being rejected. While my devotion speaks about being rejected by others, I find that there's another type of rejection that is just as defeating - that's the rejection I give myself.
I've had a few ongoing goals for let's say ... uummm ... about 15 years. Mainly the ongoing goals deal with losing weight and getting in shape. Every time I get the gumption to get serious about those goals, something interrupts my plan. Maybe it's a vacation or a holiday. It might be my husband's schedule, or a child's needs.
Then that rejection starts coming from within -
You don't have what it takes to lose those 20 pounds. You'll never be able to do a push up. Your schedule is too busy. Why even bother?
I hate that rejection, and so it seems easier to not even try. Because I know it's sitting out there just waiting, hiding behind that all-you-can eat pizza buffet, or a venti mocha. Or I find it in a work out class when I watch other women can do what I can't. I know the thoughts that will follow.
But I'm not ready to give up!
Even as I type these words, the answer comes to me. I can't do it alone. I wish I could, because I'm just that way - little miss independent. But the truth is, I'm better with a friend.
Perhaps that's the answer for dealing with any rejection. Having someone by my side, who understands why these challenges are so difficult, makes all the difference. So perhaps, instead of having the weight loss, or getting in shape as my primary goal, I should be focusing on finding a friend to face things with.
I don't know if that helps you today, but it sure helps me.
In His Love,