Maybe I should step back and consider the reality of what I can and can't control. There are some things I have some authority over, although at times it feels otherwise. Here are a few of those things:
- What I put in my mouth (hmmm ... but I thought I needed a third piece of pizza!)
- And what comes out of it.
- I really can control my thoughts, though I often feel like a victim to fear and worry.
- What I let fear keep me from doing
- How much I pray
- How much I read the Bible
- My 13-month-old Husky from wanting to run like she's pulling a sled on every walk. (Can someone please call the dog whisperer for me? This will be the one case he CAN'T crack.)
- My intense dislike of exercise (Let's just say I was designed to wobble and not fall over)
- My frustration at kids bickering (I know if I wasn't so annoyed, I'd think of some smart way to deal with this)
- My need for a Mocha Frappuccino with malt (and my delusion that the calcium in it outweighs its unhealthy components)
Here's what I definitely can't control:
- Other people's choices
- Other people's words
- Every situation
- God ("Our God is in heaven; he does whatever pleases him." Psalm 115:3 NIV)
Learning to live with the first three things I can't control, means relying on the fourth thing I can't control. It truly is magnificent that we can't control God. It means He can't be swayed from the truth; He never changes; He's the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. Which also means He loves me, is for me and is willing to work on my behalf.
Every frustration I deal with - whether it is with myself or others - is an opportunity to look to God for help. Every time I choose to solve things on my own is a missed opportunity to see God work a miracle ... in my heart or in the situation.
The control freak in me needs to stop trying so hard to control what I can't, and focus on what I can. After all, God's track record of solving problems is much better than mine! I pretty sure that's something I'll need to remember over and over - based on my past history of forgetting it over and over. Hmmm ... maybe a Mocha Frappuccino would help. (ooooo ... there goes that control/delusion thing again.)
In His Love,