Without a doubt, nothing has stretched me more spiritually than motherhood. In addition to filling my heart with overflowing joy, being a mom has stretched me to the limits of my endurance, and revealed gaping holes in my character.
Here's just one of many examples. You see, before kids, I probably would have bragged about being patient. I'm a go-with-the-flow type of person, who doesn't mind a delay in a line or at a restaurant. I'm forgiving to drivers who go for miles with their left turn signal on, and full of compassion for those who seem befuddled by life. But give me a child who decides that she would rather wear shorts and a t-shirt, rather than the long pants I "suggested," and I'm as patient as a dog who hears the word "Walk?"
My relationship with my children is emotionally charged. There's the protective instinct I have for each of them that colors my decisions, as well as the hopes, dreams, fears and frustrations of dealing with children who think and act differently than I ever have. So when something happens to one of them, it happens to me too. Just in a different way.
Today I have a devotion running on Proverbs 31 and Crosswalk about being a patient parent. Specifically, I shared the challenge of sowing good character seeds into children, and being patient until the harvest shows up. And I also wrote about what can happen when we sow negative character traits into our children. We always reap more than we sow.
While I hope that others are ministered to by the biblical truths shared in the devotions I write, the truth is they always contain something for me too - even months after I've written them.
I believe God is reminding me that, like it or not, I am a gardener in the hearts of my children - and those around me. Every day I'm sowing something into their hearts. So, the question for me today is this:
What am I sowing into my children's (friend's/husband's/family's) hearts today through my character?
Is it patience, compassion, forgiveness, and mercy?
Or is it anger, bitterness, impatience and hurry?
I know that only through God's power in my life can I begin to be the person and mother He is calling me to be. May you experience that same power in your own life.
In His Love,